The below link was sent to me by my Mom. It is a really good article about how to maintain a level of cleanliness in your home when you just don't feel like doing anything.
http://bipolar.about.com/od/copingtips/tp/dealing-with-depression-housecleaning.htm
I think everyone has blah days every once in a while, but imagine one after the other after the other after the other. Depression is a big battle for me. My recent move has caused a major depressive episode. I have very little energy, very little interest in what I normally do, my body aches, my appetite is not great, and my weight has been fluctuating. I feel as if I am walking through mud. The littlest amount of exertion takes so much energy. I am barely able to do what I have to do, let alone keep my house clean.
A year ago before this all started my house was always clean. Everything had a place, and I would scrub daily to keep up with everything. I miss those days of carefree housecleaning. Now I clean for 5 minutes, rest for 10, clean for 5 until I accomplish a task. Nothing is as clean as I would like for it to be. I am learning to not beat myself up for it, that is only counterproductive and adds to the feeling of "I am worthless". Still my house is not as clean as I would like for it to be, and I continue to find ways to get a little done here and there. I do what I can and try to focus on what I have done, not what I used to do, or what I still need to do to have a clean home. I can only do so much, and if all I get done in a day is taking care of my children than that is enough.
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