Crackers and Raspberries

My son is running circles in the living room eating crackers and blowing raspberries, my daughter is trying to watch a movie, my husband is enjoying his weekend playing video games on his laptop, and I'm working on my blog. Fun times right? I wouldn't know. Today my depression is worse, and I am numb to emotion. I just don't care right now. I want to care, I want to feel normal, but I feel like crap. I'm sleeping all the time and I can't help it. I have no motivation to keep my house clean, I don't want to work out, I don't want to read. All I want to do is sleep. Can I sleep for three days before I have to do anything? That would be great, a three day break so I can just sleep. A five day sleeping marathon sounds even better.
I feel bad for my husband who has to watch me losing interest in everything. He has to pull my teeth to get me to talk to him. It's not intentional, I just don't care to talk to anyone right now. I feel like I'm living in a cloud. Everything is darker and grey. The recent move from Oceanside, CA to Columbia, SC really set me back. I'm still recuperating 3 weeks later! I hate this feeling, I want to pull it together and just hop into the sunshine. There is no pulling it together though. I can control my behavior, keep myself safe, workout, but I can't just snap out of it. Which sucks. It really, really sucks.
So in an effort to choose actions that will help my mood I am going to set goals. Writing a goal down increases the likelihood of accomplishing it. So my goal for today is to workout and clean my house for 30 minutes. My goal for the week is to workout daily, and continue working on my blog. I just realized I have yet to say why I am working on this blog. Simple really, I want to break down the stereotypes and beliefs about mental illness. I'm trying to break barriers.