Blah

Today was a blah day. I did not sleep well last night. I had a lot of nightmares. I had a great week last week, I had energy everyday, I got my house nice and clean, I slept better, it was an awesome week. Today however has not been a great day. My sweet hubby sent me back to bed when he woke up and saw how tired I was. I haven't cleaned anything all day, and with two small children if you aren't cleaning your house mess just piles up around you. I'm very irritable, and nothing is helping me feel better. My paranoia is still high. I am hoping I will be alright tonight once it is dark out. The sun is setting now, and it's cloudy so it is extra gloomy for 4:45 in the afternoon. Gloomy is no fun. I need a bright sunny day. I need to get out of the house and spend some time in the sun!
I'm just telling myself tomorrow will be better. I'll take my anxiety medication tonight with my meds, and get a good nights sleep. I'll hit tomorrow hard to make up for a bad day today. Everyone has bad days. I'm allowed to have bad days. It doesn't mean I am sliding down again. It just means I had a bad day. Tomorrow will be much better.