A Good Day

Today was a really good day. I remembered to take my Klonopin which is my anti anxiety medication this morning and this afternoon. With that in my system all day I was nice and relaxed. I was not fearful at all. I even did a thorough shopping trip today with both kids. It was grocery shopping, no way was I about to face the crowds on black Friday. I never did enjoy shopping in a crowded store. The only down side to all my medication is the personality change. Maybe it's not the meds, but just my experiences over the last year and a half. I'm not the happy go lucky person I once was. I don't crack jokes as often, I don't get excited very easily. I miss my old self. The old me before I got sick. The torment of frightening hallucinations has affected me. Life doesn't hold the joy it once did. Maybe I can get that back. I want to get that back. Something for me to think about, how to get that joy, energy, and happiness back.